Life has been very busy lately. I can’t believe I haven’t posted since 2015! But when I read some of my old blog posts I realised I still needed to listen to some of my own advice. So, I thought it worth adding a new post about a new bit of wisdom. Not my wisdom, but something that came from listening to a song.
I have recently come across a new band to listen to called Lion of Judah https://m.facebook.com/profile.php?id=156440664689816&ref=content_filter
Lion of Judah are local to me but the first time I saw them was at Creationfest in Cornwall last August. http://www.creationfest.org.uk/, which is a free christian festival.
I listened to some of their music at home on YouTube and soon began to be challenged by one song in particular. The song is called “Treasure” https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kk9fbYtnOdw
These words really caught my attention and my heart…
“Have I been building up my tower so high? Is there something that I care about more? Is there something else I’m living for? Can you remind me that this isn’t my home, My Treasure is in you alone!”
I don’t know what made the band write this song, but this is what it said to me.
I doodled out a picture while I listened one night and added in a couple of bible verses along with the lyrics I quoted above. It got me thinking about our towers.
So what do I mean building our towers?
In Genesis 11 verse 4 the people are trying to build a tower.
“Then they said, “Come, let us build ourselves a city and a tower with its top in the heavens, and let us make a name for ourselves, lest we be dispersed over the face of the whole earth.”
They wanted to make a name for themselves, they wanted to make something to be proud of, they were looking to glorify themselves.
It’s not easy to avoid doing this ourselves though. You see it doesn’t just apply to those things we might find obviously related to this, maybe looking for fame and fortune or wanting the most likes on our latest selfie!
But what about those good things we ought to be doing? Just who are we doing them for? For the benefit of others, the recipients of our work and ultimately to the glory of God? Or are we looking for praise and recognition for those things?
For me I realised that when I got married 17 years ago and then had children I had begun to build my own tower.
Yes as a wife and a mum it was only right that I devote time to my husband and children. But I had begun to build my work in them, not in God. My goal became to be the best family, to reach God through living a fairy tale family life. To basically say look Lord look what I have built. Instead of looking at my husband and children and family circumstances as God’s gifts. I don’t mean to say I shouldn’t care about my family, put them before myself or help the members of the family become the best they can be. But ultimately living for my family isn’t the kingdom goal.
My family are as temporary as my own life on earth! It will all fade away. Treasure that lasts can only be found in God.. here is where the other verse in my doodle from Matthew 6 verse 21 came in
“for where your treasure is, there your heart will be also”.
My heart drifted from God, as it beheld my family as the ultimate treasure.
I didn’t go around boasting about my family, I didn’t put my children into lots of clubs intending to be doing more, better things, or succeeding at higher levels than someone else. I wasn’t competitive like that. I put expectations on them and myself to act in a certain way, to appear to be a perfect family. Sadly my motives weren’t just to cultivate good habits in my children but also to appear in a certain way to others.
Now, I am not saying all my intentions were based on my building self recognition, but I can see how I was using my family as a tower at times. Building it up to be something to gain praise for; for my own glory. I still need to step back and re check my motives. As the song says
” Is there something that I care about more, is there something else I am living for?”
We can all benefit from asking ourselves these questions and asking God to show us whether we living for something else be it money, recognition, or many other things.
If my first concern, my first Goal, is to glorify God. If I am living for him, then I will treat my family right without the need to build recognition for myself, to store up my treasures in them. After all they are part of the treasures, the gifts, God has given me to take care of in this life. What greater treasure awaits in Heaven!